January 4, 2017 § 2 Comments
There is a lot to say, but that is a poor excuse for not saying it. When I started this blog, I did it with the intention to be generous with my story. I confess, generosity doesn’t come easily to me. I have always struggled with fear that there wouldn’t be enough for me — time, food, love, space, money, acceptance. But the truth is, I have never actually experienced an actual lack of any of those things.
I live, have always lived, in abundance. I wrestle with, have always wrestled with, the lie that there will not be enough.
This is a placeholder post, a wedge, an acknowledgement that there is enough time and space to tell the very large story of the last 9 months.
Since I last wrote here, I’ve used Instagram and Facebook the way they ought to be used. The story can be pieced together in pictures. You are welcome and encouraged to try. And I do intend to share the stories that go along with the illustrations…eventually. They’re written, as usual, in the stacks and stacks of notebooks someone will oneday find my body crushed beneath.
But I don’t want to lose ground by continuing to say that I can’t blog about life in real time just because I haven’t been. “A person can’t jump from walking down the stairs with a half-broken back and questionable sanity at the downtown YMCA in Austin, TX to hauling a half ton of horse manure in the snow at her farm in in the Pacific Northwest without copious amounts of explanation!”
Or can she?
It’s more like will she?